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Gestational Carrier
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Of How I’m Feeling
For nearly nine months we shared living space – he made me sick (literally), rammed his head into my bladder, shoved his body into my stomach space, and threw wild dance parties at all hours of the night. And now he’s gone, home where he belongs. And I have this body back to myself. And it sure has bounced back a lot sooner than I’d anticipated or experienced previously. But, then, as it turns out, when one isn’t trying to take care of oneself, getting the necessary ...
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Of His Arrival
Today is the day. March 30. It’s the one I’d been counting, but not counting, down to for nearly nine months. It was the date the IVF doctor gave us as a potential due date, and though it’s not the one our OB officially counted on, it was the one the rest of us were. And, yet, here we are, at March 30, Good Friday. And baby boy has been out in this world for five days already. And we are all so blessed by that fact. Of course I’m more than happy to not be ...
Gestational Carrier, Surrogacy, Thoughts
Of The Plan – and How It Goes Awry
We had a plan. I was going to go to the hospital to give birth and return home without a baby, as this little one inside me would be going home with his parents. And that would probably be just fine. But on the odd chance it wasn’t ok, if my body held on to this biological urge to care for a little being that was no longer around, what then? A kitten, I thought. That would solve it. Small and soft and snuggly and in need of care. Something to hold in my arms if ever they felt too ...
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Of Trust
Lately I have written lot about hope – particularly since the miscarriage we experienced this spring. I’ve been very particular to label it as “hope” because I’ve struggled deeply with the concept of “faith” – inasmuch as it’s defined in Hebrews 11:1 as “the assurance of things hoped for.” I knew God had called us to this journey as a gestational carrier, but I also knew He had never assured us of a certain outcome, though we ...