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Of How I’m Feeling

April 6, 2018

For nearly nine months we shared living space – he made me sick (literally), rammed his head into my bladder, shoved his body into my stomach space, and threw wild dance parties at all hours of the night. And now he’s gone, home where he belongs. And I have this body back to myself. And it sure has bounced back a lot sooner than I’d anticipated or experienced previously. But, then, as it turns out, when one isn’t trying to take care of oneself, getting the necessary ...

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Of His Arrival

March 31, 2018

Today is the day. March 30. It’s the one I’d been counting, but not counting, down to for nearly nine months. It was the date the IVF doctor gave us as a potential due date, and though it’s not the one our OB officially counted on, it was the one the rest of us were. And, yet, here we are, at March 30, Good Friday. And baby boy has been out in this world for five days already. And we are all so blessed by that fact. Of course I’m more than happy to not be ...

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Of Renewing Our Hope

August 25, 2017

We faced the black and white screen once again – that same room, that same doctor – the one who pronounced to us only four months ago the unexpected loss of something so precious and anticipated – he, too, had that look on his face, the one that said he hoped so much for something better to tell us this time, but that he was almost afraid to hope. We were all a little afraid in that room. And then it came, the tiny, grainy flicker of a tiny grain-sized heart beating. ...