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Of How I’m Feeling

April 6, 2018

For nearly nine months we shared living space – he made me sick (literally), rammed his head into my bladder, shoved his body into my stomach space, and threw wild dance parties at all hours of the night. And now he’s gone, home where he belongs. And I have this body back to myself. And it sure has bounced back a lot sooner than I’d anticipated or experienced previously. But, then, as it turns out, when one isn’t trying to take care of oneself, getting the necessary ...

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Of His Arrival

March 31, 2018

Today is the day. March 30. It’s the one I’d been counting, but not counting, down to for nearly nine months. It was the date the IVF doctor gave us as a potential due date, and though it’s not the one our OB officially counted on, it was the one the rest of us were. And, yet, here we are, at March 30, Good Friday. And baby boy has been out in this world for five days already. And we are all so blessed by that fact. Of course I’m more than happy to not be ...

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Of The Plan – and How It Goes Awry

March 9, 2018

We had a plan. I was going to go to the hospital to give birth and return home without a baby, as this little one inside me would be going home with his parents. And that would probably be just fine. But on the odd chance it wasn’t ok, if my body held on to this biological urge to care for a little being that was no longer around, what then? A kitten, I thought. That would solve it. Small and soft and snuggly and in need of care. Something to hold in my arms if ever they felt too ...

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Of Riding the Line

November 7, 2017

Sunday, November 5, was a difficult day. It was the birthday of a sweet young family member born only four months before our youngest, but who left this world without warning two weeks before our little one entered it. It was the day we received news of 26 strangers, though bound to us by the blood of Christ, who attended church one morning and never returned home. It was the day a young man in our own church family, a husband and father of three young boys, who has spent his life battling ...

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Of the Fear-Filled Morning

October 6, 2017

It began with a trickle. But the trickle was pink. And that’s not a good color to find on your bedsheet when you’re pregnant. But when I felt the rush of fluid while heading in the hospital doors, touched my soaking pants and came away with fingers wet with red, my intermittant nervous tears turned into full weeping. It was too late. I just knew it. At nearly 15 weeks, this baby was gone. When I continued to see an overwhelming amount of reddish pink on the ER bed sheets, the ...