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Of the Fear-Filled Morning

It began with a trickle. But the trickle was pink. And that’s not a good color to find on your bedsheet when you’re pregnant. But when I felt the rush of fluid while heading in the hospital doors, touched my soaking pants and came away with fingers wet with red, my intermittant nervous tears turned into full weeping. It was too late. I just knew it. At nearly 15 weeks, this baby was gone. When I continued to see an overwhelming amount of reddish pink on the ER bed sheets, the  ...

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Featured, Gestational Carrier, Surrogacy

He is Still Good

Nearly two weeks ago we learned that the life I had been carrying in my womb had turned to death only a week after we first saw that tiny heart beating. Weeks I carried death in my own body, without even knowing. The reality of that truth was painful – I had been living a lie and didn’t even know it. I was hurt, but, more, I was hurting for those precious parents – the ones who had entrusted their little treasure to my care. As only God had planned, we received this news  ...

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Featured, Gestational Carrier

Surrogacy – The Loss

I fell asleep last night on a pillow soaked in tears, fists wrapped tightly around crumpled hankies, and I know I wasn’t the only one. Yesterday was the first time I experienced that moment of trepidation when the nurse assures you, “You’re only 11 weeks and two days – it’s still a little early to hear the heartbeat sometimes.” That sinking knowledge that you’ve heard in the past the little flutter of a heartbeat can be heard on that small machine  ...

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